Friday, January 05, 2007
Last Friday the girls and I went through some of mom's stuff and today we're taking the stuff that we don't want to the markdown, then we're taking Grandma out to lunch. I've only seen mom's grave once since I've been home. I want to try to make it out there before I leave. We left a Christmas wreath on it -- we're still trying to find a tombstone though.
Wow, this Christmas has been so different from any other Christmas. I wish things were back to normal. Back we'll learn to cope, and it'll get easier as time goes on....
hmmmm...I'll probably start packing this afternoon. I need to confirm my class schedule for next semester, and I need to figure out what I'm doing as copy editor of Collegian and chaplain. Next semester's going to be crazy...
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
yay! our power is back on!!! whoohoo! ;) I ran to Garden this morning to do some last-minute shopping for school. I think I've got everything I need now. lol, the problem is how I'm going to get it back to school! :)
oh, guess what?!?! We can wear pants to games at BJ now!! We used to only wear pants when we leave campus, but now we can wear pants to basketball, soccer, v-ball games, etc on campus! I'm excited!! We can't wear pants to anything else...but this is a start. AND, hose is next!! I just hope they pitch the hose rule before I graduate... :)
anyway, I hope nobody actually reads this blog. Some of the stuff I write is SO random. lol. Anyway, i'm signing off now--
grateful to be back in civilized life...
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
well...we are going on five days without power. FiVe! we turn the generator on every couple hours to warm the house, take showers, cook dinner, power up my laptop, charge my phone, etc. This is getting old really fast. lol, it's really teaching me to appreciate electricity!
so...five days from today I go back to school. :( not ready. I'm chaplain (preacher woman! lol!) of my society (don't worry, all girls!) next semester so I get to teach every Sunday morning for Sunday school. Ahhh!!! I'm not mature enough for this... :) I visited a friend from Topeka yesterday and she gave me some good ideas for Sunday school topics. But it's scary because I'm going to teach 50 college students every morning -- it's not just teaching kids or even high schoolers. These college kids have minds of their owns. :) But I'm also excited about it. And excited that I have the opportunity to share so many things that God has been teaching me. I just don't want to teach anything that is wrong!
okay, I'm going to write out my schedule for next semester...and then go from there. Sigh. I've got to get out of this depression. Next semester will be good! As long as I stay away from the guys...
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
good morning!
wow, my sister just came down and said the dentist office called to say that i have a dentist appointment friday at 8:30. lol. i feel like such an irresponsible person -- i totally forgot i even made a dentist appointment this summer for christmas break. And the horrible thing about it is, I ALWAYS make a dentist appointment every six months. lol. oh well. I blame it on more important things that I'm thinking about.
anyway, i'm starting...maybe...to get a little more encouraged about going back to school. I don't know. I'm just really dreading going back. And I know next semester is going to be the HARDEST i've ever had at school. I can't believe I talked myself into taking on so much. BUT I'm so READY to graduate!! I'm getting MAJOR senior FeVeR! I'm super excited! But with graduating comes a lot of hard decisions to make...like where I'm going to live, a job, and money. maybe I'll end up getting married... lol. that would solve the problem of where to live. But I'd still have to decide where to work and how to pay off school bills. hmmm...WHY is life so complicated?!?!Labels: break
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
hey bloggers!
well, i'm finally back on the online world once again. lol. i drove from school with some friends on thursday and we were home on friday. it's been so WoNdErFuL not having any homework or anything I have to do or am expected to attend...i've been enjoying the peace and quiet from roommates lol (okay, seriously, I love you guys! but the peacefulness has been nice...;)) and having NO interrruptions with people coming in or teachers popping emails to add to your already-full schedule. this is nice -- i'm SO not going to be ready to go back to school in two weeks...
anyway, i've been searching for internships with magazines after i graduate (wow, did I saw graduate?!?! craziness!!) and i'm super excited about some of them i found. Some enough provide housing for the whole length of the internship! is that sweet or what?!?! ;) and then maybe (ahem...big maybe) i'll be offered a job after the internship! that'd be sweet...but just depends on the competition... SO many things to think about -- oh to live a simple life at home once again... ;)
anyway, it's exciting to think about...
kay, i'm going to catch up on some other stuff, so catch y'all on the fLiP side!
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Mom had a beautiful funeral. She had so many flowers and a lot more people came than I expected. Mom would have loved it. The service was so fitting for mom too. They detailed her life and her character perfectly.
So many people said I looked just like my mom and my mannerisms and expressions were just like her. That made my day. :) It was so encouraging to hear and it totally uplifted my heart.
I still can't believe she's gone. It hurts. It hurts a lot. But it's dad I feel for. I don't know how to help him. I don't know what to say or what to do. He's feeling so much right now, and he's in a lot of pain. Mom was everything to him. When she died, he lost a huge part of his life. I can only pray that God will comfort his heart and the pain will lessen as the days go on.
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Today is mom's funeral. We're leaving in about 40 minutes for the flower
service, then the funeral starts at 10:30. It's going to be a hard day.
But I'm thankful for so many friends and family that will be there to
show their support.
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Monday, November 06, 2006
My mom passed away at 11:40 on Friday night. I had the sweetest time
with my mom before she died. I feel so blessed and so thankful that the
Lord allowed me to have that time with her. At about 9 p.m., my sisters
and dad went to bed and I stayed up with mom. The plan was for me to
stay up with her until 3 a.m., then dad would stay with her for the rest
of the night.
From 9-11, I sat with mom and talked with her. I told her things that I
hadn't told anyone else, I read my favorite verses to her and prayed
with her. I cried a lot and kept telling her, "mom, I'm right by your
side, I'm not going to leave your side until you go home."
I don't know whether she heard me, whether she understood what I was
saying, but I needed that time to grieve, to tell her things I wanted
her to know before she died, and just to hold her hand and be close to
her.
At about 11:30, Dad had awakened in a cold sweat and couldn't go back to
sleep, so he came out to check on mom. He felt her pulse and heart rate
and said he didn't think she had much time left. He prayed with her,
then went downstairs to wake up Serena and Jena. I told mom, "Dad's
here, it's okay to go home." Her breathing was slower and more spaced
out. Then she opened both of her eyes real wide and looked straight at
me, she took two more breaths and while I was holding her hand, I
watched her go up into heaven.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done. But I'm so thankful I could be
by her side and that I spent the last few hours with her. We are all
hurting, but God is holding us in HIs right hand and is comforting our
hearts. We are so thankful she is in Heaven and is walking on the
streets of gold. Someday soon we will all be in Heaven with her.
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